firefly sentences.

30/30: “29 Things I Should Have Said.”

1. I’m sorry.
2. You’re amazing in ways I’ve never been able to imagine before.
3. I’m jealous of my father. Because he found someone as amazing as my mother.
4. My mother is patient in all the ways I never was. She barely laughs but she smiles like it’s never going out of style. I’ve never seen her angry and she is probably everything I want to be when I grow up.
5. Everyday, I want to melt into her arms and tell her how much she means to me until the world knows that I came from somewhere divine.
6. I’ve always wanted to write an honest poem. But I haven’t been able to look at myself in the mirror with enough honesty to be able to.
7. They said a poem doesn’t start until you’ve started telling the truth. That is why I can never write a poem about politics.
8. Sometimes, I think words are meaningless because of how someone can say so little, yet speak so much.
9. But I think words are beautiful because of how someone can say so much, yet so little.
10. I would probably forgive you for things I wouldn’t forgive myself for. Or anyone else.
11. I’d like to be everything you want. Hey girl, let me talk to you. If I was your boyfriend, I’d never let you go. Keep you on my arm girl, you’ll never be alone. And I can be a gentleman, anything you want. If I was your boyfriend, I’d never let you go.
12. I have friends that I trust more than I trust myself. And I get the feeling that there are more just waiting to convince me to. 
13. I used to be scared of having dreams, because everyone has to wake up sometime.
14. I still dream. Bigger than before.
15. I think you’re beautiful and I’m too scared to tell you.
16. If I gave you my heart, would I recognize it when you give it back to me? But I pray that never happens because I want you to keep it.
17. There are days when I feel alone is much more pleasurable than company. There is just something beautiful in the conversations your brain has with your heart.
18. I was a last minute dislocated ankle from competing in Brave New Voices. At first I was angry. But then I convinced myself to see it as a blessing. Because what else would there have been for me to aim for after that?
19. I get the feeling that some poetry slams are popularity contests. These days, you’re more likely to find me performing for charity or for students, because a good cause and a inspiration are worth more than competition to me.
20. I have a weakness for you, and I’ve never given a thought to fixing it.
21. You reproach me every time I sacrifice sleep to hear your voice. But if I didn’t, that’s all I’d be hoping to dream of every time I convince my eyelids to zip themselves closed and my mind to take a few hours off. 
22. I still can’t believe you see me that way. That a person could strip the shield I’ve found solace behind and tell me all the beauty I have never seen inside it. That it only took you that long to see something a little like treasure in a graveyard of imperfections.
23. There is not enough honesty in people these days. Not enough smiling and laughing. Not enough “Here you can have my seat.” and definitely not enough love because there is too much lust.
24. I never want to know what a one night stand feels like. I’m too caught up in believing that things like that should actually mean something.
25. I’ve never understood what people meant by a “guilty pleasure”. If you enjoy something, you should sing it at the top of your fingertips every time the fireflies in your veins burst into fireworks.
26. I know too many bitter men and broken women. I constantly wish I could jigsaw their smiles and hopes back together, but I’m clumsy. The last time I tried to do that with myself, I’m pretty sure I did it wrong.
27. I fear living in a world without physical books.
28. Courage is not always found in a lion’s roar. Sometimes it is silence. And sometimes, it is the words you hide in your throat while you tell yourself that things get better.
29. I sincerely thank you for listening.

(Source: wordsinajar)